i should be really good at this by now. i make lists daily. i have lists for daily activities, short-term projects/tasks, ones that will take longer, and even lists within each project. i am very good at organizing. somehow though, i am finding this task of thinking about my long- and short-term goals in relation to a life purpose daunting. there is a lot of emotion that goes into a life purpose and there is so much i want to do. all day i have tried to focus on my long-term goals and then i distract myself. i find myself getting hung up on the words, the achievements, and what i want is to more of a feeling. i am not going to write a typical list for once. it is going to be more free flowing and living. i am going to allow it to be this way until i can whittle away all the unnecessary thoughts, baggage, energy floating around in my head.
my first goal, and the one that matters the most: to find my own voice and to use it confidently in my art and my life. doing this will ultimately allow all the other goals to happen. confidence.
i want to use this voice to connect with other artists and to be part of a supportive community to experiment and create. i want to collaborate with others, to be inspired and to inspire. inspiration.
i want to use the talents i have to help a cause i feel strongly about, animal welfare. this is where i get hung up and my mind goes to so many places. i haven't quite figured out in what capacity this will happen but it will. contribute.
i want to be a better person in all aspects. i want to be be healthier, more active, more meditative, more forgiving and accepting, and to be an all around good person, doing good to and for others. peace & happiness.
there is much to sort through and lots to do but this goal exercise has come about at a good time. this short list will be my point of focus as i try to continue with a 40-day meditation i am currently participating in, which if i might add, has been quite difficult! hopefully this list will provide the needed focus.